wuh

I'm so frustrated! I feel as though I have no control over anything anymore. Work is stressful; anything that can go wrong, does. Well...maybe not to that extreme, but that's how it feels when I'm in the middle of it. Sometimes I wonder whether I'm really cut out for this profession. But when things are good, they're SO good! Which kind of gives me a false hope. I can't win. Some mornings I walk into school, completely ready to face the day, and then everything is bad. And the reverse happens, too. I wish I had more of an indication that I'm doing well. I always feel that when people praise me, it's because they're just being nice. I don't know what the true answer is! And the same thing is going on with my relationship. I feel like I have no control over anything anymore. One day things are AWFUL (and I really do mean awful this time...it's just fucking bad), and then the next it's like we've been in love for years and we're the happiest people on the whole entire planet. At least that's how I feel, anyway... and I'm wasting time by writing this. I used to think blogging was therapeutic, but I don't really see myself getting anywhere. WAHHHHH whine time. Do you need a glass of whine? Cause I'm serving em up like nobody's business 9__9